Akedos

It's been a little over 2 years since my last update... which is probably par for course right?

I haven't had much to say because there hasn't been anything really negative in my life going on. It's been so stable and good. She really was the one. We communicate, she tries to at least, and that's more important than anything else. We are married and I am so happy to be with her. Life is better with her and better because of her.

Work is into it's 5th year now, which I think is the longest I've ever been in one place. I'm up to 2 weeks vacation now, yay! That's really exciting, it's the most I've ever gotten.

Financial constraints are still present, but not so bad. My wife is an accountant and very good with money. She's helped me become more responsible, reluctantly, but I need it. I wish she would be less frugal for her own sake. She deserves nice things some times too. But she doesn't like getting things for herself. It's not a bad thing I guess, but I don't want her to go without when we can afford it.

I've done virtually no traditional art this year, but I've done a bunch of graphic design lately. If I think about it I'll upload it soon! Wouldn't that be exciting, new content! Most of the work has been designs for disc golf discs. That's taken up a huge spot in my life. I love the sport greatly, though I miss the friend that got me into it. He moved away not long ago. It's not the same without him... though I'm grateful to have an activity to share with my wife in the nice weather. It's nice that she plays with me.

Oh, I won full custody of my daughter. It's been a while now. I'm so happy to have her with me every day. I think about it a lot, and am reminded how infrequently father's get custody by little things in life. Anyway my wife is proving to be an excellent mother, if a bit hesitant. They love each other though, so that's what counts the most.

So until next time, maybe 2017? Keep Calm and Disc On

So, as with most of my journal entries, this one is many months later than the last one.

Updates:
The last woman I referred to in my journal was older... but not wiser. She was too much a child still. Despite my willingness to grow with her, she was not yet ready to have someone in her life. I was sad then, but I celebrate the loss now.

I am currently in a relationship with a woman whom I think may be the one I've always searched for. She is smart and funny. We are often finishing each others' thoughts and sentences. We like similar things. We enjoy doing things together. And we have not even once fought seriously. We COMMUNICATE!!! It's a miracle. We've been seeing one another for a little over 3 months and we just moved in together. It feels so right. I'm so happy. The only thing that bugs me is she likes tickling me... ugh. What's with people tickling me? I guess I'll have to get over that because I love her and tickling is torture worth taking.

As for work, I've been there for 2 1/4 years now. I'm so thankful to have a great job.

Bills are still killing me, but now that I'm not going to have to financially support my sister and I have my girlfriend to count on to divide bills with I think things are going to stabilize like they should.

I haven't done much art this year, if any really. I made some dA purchases for Christmas though! Had them professionally framed and everything. They'll be awesome.

I finally decided it was time to file for full custody of my daughter. Looks like it will be a long battle. Initial hearing are over and the next date isn't until March, *sigh*... she deserves the best... all kids do. I hope I can prove to the courts what's going on at her house.

Anyway, I think that's all I got. Until next time.

I killed my facebook account and left a lot of "friends" behind in the process. I don't miss them. I don't need reminders of things I didn't want or couldn't achieve.

I reconnected this year with some friends. I don't think I lost anyone important... but I can gladly say I've recently gained a significant love interest. Someone older than me, experienced in the ways of the world, stunningly beautiful... flawed... but perfect for me. I've grown enough recently to accept my own shortcomings... and with that I've learned to accept others'. I always considered myself a patient person... and while that as mostly true there was always a thing or two I could not tolerate. However, I've gotten to the point where I can love someone else for their flaws and not panic because of them. I've come to value character... my woman is selfless, and though I think she hurts herself in being such, I will do what I can in support of her ventures. She deserves that much.

I'm living on my own for the first time in a long time... well, I have a room mate, but no parents or significant other living with me at the moment. It is odd to live in "the city". But nice as well.

Work is going well. I am a jack of all trades on the machines. I learn more every week. It's a boring job, but I would certainly not trade it.

My exwife remarried this summer. I know she needs the relationship so I'm not surprised much. It didn't affect me much until the last few weeks when my daughter started calling him Dad. I feel rather alienated. My step daughter (who I raised from age 1) calls him by his first name... but she calls me Dad. But my bio daughter (almost 5 now) calls him Dad. I feel that it's a cheap shot from their mom. I'd expect her to not allow the situation. It eats me up... just one more thing to bury inside though I guess.

My medical bills are killing me still... having cancer with no insurance sucked. I hope I can pay some of them down with my bonus and taxes this year. My room mate isn't much help with bills lately. Hopefully she'll be back to work soon and more helpful.

Oh well, off to bed. Work at one.

... and things stay the  same.

So... my divorce is finally final. She can go get married now. Not saying I'm jealous exactly... cause I know she is relationship dependent, but I think it's a bit reckless.

Work is going great... boring, but great.

Cancer is still gone despite a scare in the levels last month.

Uhm... love life is kind of up and down though. I started using match.com ... with results... had a few women approach me. One was so close to perfect, but I guess I learned that I'm searching for a soul mate and I ended it quickly. So the search continues.

I've had a few dreams lately about Emily... the woman I know it would never work with. Yet she stays in my mind and comes back to haunt me at weird intervals... drives me nuts. Alas, our differences of religion would never be compatible.

My best friend's father just died... bringing about a stark reminder of mortality. Of course given my own personal relationship with death it doesn't seem to effect me so greatly. He has done well too, supporting his Mom and being a rock. I'm glad we live semi near each other so I can support him in whatever way he needs. I love him greatly.

And I suppose that sums it up. Until next time...

Cheers,
Akedos